Good now to you.

Q: Hello
V: Hello,

Q: and than you for being there.
V: Thank you for being here.

Q01: So maybe I would first like to address any insecurities about this experience being somehow an out of body experience and a different energy taking hold of me. Is that even possible during the session ?

V: [ 07:06 07:06] You concern is that another energy will take hold of you during the session ?

Q: Yes or through the session.
V: There is no way for another energy to take control of or possess as is the term possession. Your physical and mental vehicle without consent, those whom you have heard of historically or in your myth as those who have been possessed by energies that are external to them, have in their way been consensual to that experience in that the majority of these beings who have had the what would be called the possession experiences have been is a state of such internal turmoil to begin with in their own consciousness, that their own willingness to take a step out of their vessel allowed and consented to the energy of some otherness to enter into it. This does not mean that there was not also the ability for that being should it choose to reclaim it's rightful vessel. What is the case, in possession is that the consciousness of that being either believes itself to be too weak to, or chooses not to reattach itself to it's rightful vessel. Therefore the external entity group or being or spirit or whatever title you would give to the energy that has temporarily possessed, or borrowed the physical vehicle of the being, remains as the driver of such vehicle. In your case, this cannot be the case because you do not have a willingness for this to happen. However we will point to the fact that there is a fear of it happening, being in part a willingness to it happening. As per the law of attraction. All of your fears are subconsciously things that you in some way or other do on some level desire. [09:41 09:41]

Q02: Yes, I feel like the question comes also from my motive to have this session with you there is a certain. I perceive it as a stuckness in my life, and inability to live embodied aligned with some purpose, and I've give energy to things that feel like having their own energy or their own drive. So this is why I came, I came to you and I wanted to ask you about any advice or your perception about what it is that seems to keep me from consistently making changes, or moving forward of even feel like myself and aligned to purpose.

V: [ 10:33 10;33] We will unpack this question on several levels, and the question involved the word 'inability to' which is not the case, you have no 'inability to' do anything you so choose to do in your experience, in your existence. You also use the term can't or 'stopping me from'. In that you have a believe that there is some sort of external force to you when in fact all that is in your experience is your own manifestation. Therefore whatever it is that is stopping you, is some form your own self.

Now the clarification we would like to for to give yourself with this question was: What do you mean by you are giving your energy to projects that have their own will ?

Q: It's more I would call it habits, addictions for example, it's like addictions or emotions that feel abusive to myself and sometimes to others.

V: [ 11:44 11:44] And these are all behaviours that you are manifesting of your own ?

Q: Yes

V: Yes.

V: [ 11:53 11:53] We would point to you that in the same way you use the word 'inability to' you could substitute 'inability to' with 'unwillingness to' so it is not that you have an ability to cease these behaviors or habits or addictions it is that you have an unwillingness to cease these behaviours or habits or addictions. Now, there may be emotion that comes up when you are being asked to take responsibility for something that you will not own in yourself or that you see an negative, because when there is a habit or a addiction that one believes to be some sort of burden that they are a victim to they feel slightly better than they would do if they had to admit that the habit or addiction was actually within their power to control and was actually a choice. That because of your societal rules does not feel good. It does not feel good to you to believe that these negative behaviours are actually of your choosing. We will say, they are of your choosing but perhaps not on a conscious level. And you would like to bring them into your consciousness, however, you are not able to do so in as long as you are denying that they are a part of you in that they are of your choice. As soon as you accept these parts of your as part of you and as of your choosing, you are then able to look at the needs or desires that habits or addictions or behaviors are fulfilling within your life. And choose to meet those needs, or habits or desires in another fashion that is more holistic and more healthy to you.

So step one would be to look at said addiction or behaviour, take a breath and admit that it is wanted in your current experience, because if it was not you would not be doing it.

The second step is to forgive yourself and accept that, that habit or behavior exists only because it is your subconscious's best option with what it has known and learned up until this point in time. Once you have accepted that and forgiven yourself that you did not have other tools or instruments, with which to meet that need. You will be able to look within that habit or behaviour and find out what is it that is the need or the desire or the passion or the will that is beneath that habit or what is that habit or behaviour meeting in this moment. Once you have deciphered what need is beneath the [quote/unquote 'negative habit', you can then learn or find or choose a way to meet that need that is more holistic and healthier and more pleasing to you and one that you do not need to reject in yourself. Do you have a specific topic or habit or behaviour that you would like to address and go through this process with ? [ 15:14 15:14]

Q03: Yes I would like to do that with the behaviour or smoking.

V: Yes. If you own the fact that you are enjoying or benefitting from the habit of smoking, the first thing that will fall away is your guilt for continuing a habit that you believe has power over you. Your shame for continuing a habit that you believe has power over you and you will reclaim your power, your next cigarette will be one that is had because you are choosing to have it, this is step one.

When you are having it out of your choice, see what changes within your being, in that before you have it, there will be a sensation that calls to you to have it. Then as you are having it that sensation will be soothed or appeased or neutralized in some way or other.
Tune into what is being changed within you. Perhaps it is anxiety, perhaps it is the speediness of your thoughts, perhaps it is a reward system and somehow you have equated smoking to being rewarded or rewarding yourself, or perhaps it is a way to perpetuate a self hatred. There are many many factors or reasons why the act of smoking is benefiting you in some way.

Do you have any inkling as to what that might be ?

Q: Yes. I feel that what I just said last, about perpetuating a self hatred, there seems to be a connection to that, why would it serve me or why would I choose to perpetuate that because that doesn't seem to fulfill any beneficial purpose.

V: [ 17:17 17:17] It does of course, in that when you are punished, which would be the case the cigarette perhaps you are using as a punishment to yourself after one is punished for their negative actions or their inperfections, they no longer have to feel the guilt or the action. Or the guilt of the beingness. So when a child has drawn on the walls of their bedroom and their parent comes in and sees the walls drawn upon, the child expects the punishment or the resolution of the cause and effect. If that resolution does not arrive, the child will need to on it's own come to terms with their own actions and interpret the parents non response in whatever way that their psyche can possibly do so. However if the child is spanked or punished or put in a corner, they can then blame the parent for the action and they will not learn from their mistake or from their innocence.

The act of punishment, can be used to defer a sense of blame or a sense of guilt.
So would you say that this self hatred comes from a deeper sense of guilt or unworthiness that it feels better to punish yourself for than it does to stay with.

Q: Yes. And could you help me with that and evaluating if this is the main ingredient of this behavior or the main benefit I pull from.

V: [19:25 19:25] Yes there is a part of you that when it is feeling at it's worst, will reach for a cigarette to punish itself for feeling badly, or to perpetuate the negative feeling, so that the feeling has a let's say, reason for existing because if you have the belief that you are indeed negative, or you are indeed bad, and then you give that feeling a reason to be. Which is in this case the smoking. Then you no longer have to accept that the negative feeling may just be as it is. Because it is teaching you or telling you something else.
It is an avoidance mechanism.

Q: Yes.

V: If you can justify your feeling bad about yourself with a crutch such as smoking then you do not need to look at why you feel bad about yourself in some other way.

Q: So looking at the, looking at why I feel bad about myself, would be the first step in replacing, if I even choose to replace it, but that would be another way to have the same effect that the cigarette gives me.

V: [ 20:46 20:46] Yes that would be the first step, and the second step would be to instead of punishing that feeling bad about yourself, actually addressing it as a kind and gentle ally, which would like for you to actually begin to feel good. It is again back to the analogy of the parent. There is a parent that will put the child in the corner for drawing on the wall and another parent who will tape papers to the wall, so that the child has the ability to be itself and express itself in a way that is compensating or accommodating for everybody's needs, the need of the parent to have cleanly painted walls and the need of the child to express itself in that manner. The child who has the parent who will tape the papers to the wall for them will learn that they are allowed to draw on the wall where there are papers and they are not allowed to draw on the wall where there is none, they will have a boundary set for them. They will understand the rules and they will not lose their self expression. Whereas the punitive parent will have done nothing other than teach the child that when the child does something wrong it doesn't not deserve the love of correction.

Q: It seems that this is experience that I have had in my childhood. So there is a not being able to express myself seems like a main factor for not feeling good about myself.

V: Yes.

Q04: And at this moment it feels like I have almost. I feel like being in a hallway, like every step to help me to express myself immediately is buried again by a experience, or by something that feels like weakness or inability to follow through, with what is a main belief behind this feeling of stuckness.

V: [ 22:50 22:50] The main belief that you are exposing to us with your language is powerlessness, because you have used the term again inability where the word unwillingness would have been more appropriate.

So there is a child within you, or a being within you that is still believing that punishment is the only way to go, the only way to formulate strength of character. This is probably because it was what was shown to you as a child. Now however you are not a child and you do have the power to choose whatever you choose to do. So if your expression seems to be stunted by something external to you it is always something internal that is happening, because what happens when you have an obstacle is not that there is an obstacle. It's that there is an opportunity to show the universe and show yourself how much you truly want something.

So how much do you truly want self expression ?

Q: It seems like I don't want it enough. Otherwise these beliefs and behaviours wouldn't manifest.

V: Yes. And that is ok. So step one is just accepting that. That in this moment you don't want it enough. Why ? Because you want something else more. So if you can find out what you want more than that then you can address that. Feed that whatever it needs feeding and then move on to your deeper dreams of self expression or movement or evolution or whatever it is that is is you are saying you are stuck from doing. So what is it that you you want more in this moment than self expression ?

Q: Is there always something that someone wants more, is it so you say, so there is always the experience is an effect of desires. So it's not, there must be a desire that I want more because at this moment it feels like very neutral and tired and as if there is not something I want more. The only thing that comes to mind is maybe being accepted, or being accepted comes to mind.

V: [25:21 25:21] Perhaps, but you said what you want more in the first part. You said that it feels very neutral and apathetic and that is what you are wanting more. So at that point you would have to look at what it is that those energies are serving you. Why is it that your neutrality and your apathy in this moment is serving you ? We can come at this is a different way.

By saying or asking What is it that you would have to give up, in order to fully express yourself, what sacrifices would you need to make in your current life, in your current relationships in your current state of being. What would need to change when you are expressing yourself fully ?

Q: I can come up with mental answers first, but it's hard for me to really feel it. There is something like maybe being a part of society, there is a fear of being laughed at or excluded.

V: Yes.
Q: Yes

V: So you apathy protects you from being alienated, excluded, and laughed at.
Q: Yes, that is a deep fear. Not taken seriously.

V: Yes.
Q: Yes, not taken seriously.

V: [ 27:14 27:14] So you can say that you would prefer to remain what you would call earlier 'stuck' than face that fear.

Q: Yes, is there any practice or any way to start facing that fear.
V: Yes. Taking action, in the direction of it, because as you do you will find that each step towards the vision of yourself that provokes those fears, will be gradual. That is the first aspect and that as you take each step you will find out that you do have allies, because if those steps are in the direction of your highest nature then the universe will line up with you. You will have more [ felicity ? 28:02 28:02] you will have more joy and therefore your vibration will raise and the reality you currently find yourself in. Where yes perhaps people would judge or laugh you is not longer the reality you find yourself in because it is the reality of the you who is in the neutral apathetic state and not the reality of you who is a shining version and beacon of light. In the reality of that being, there are not people who are laughing at them. It is simply not in alignment with who they are. And if there are they see them with compassion. They understand that this humiliation does not reflect upon them and they are able to allow that person to have their perspective without it being something that they take on board. They are confident in who they are because they feel good about who they are. The only reason why right now, from the space you are in, you think that that is not possible is because you do not feel good about who you are, and the reason why you do not feel good about who you are, is because you think you would be punished if you did feel good about who you are because in some parts of your past you were punished for feeling good about who you were. [ 29:22 29:22]

Q: So it's moving towards situations where the word shame, comes is almost illuminated before me, so navigating towards situations that bear the risk of being ashamed because that seems to be my biggest fear.

V: yes.

Q: is that something that will also lead me towards more of my self expressed being ?

V: [29:47 29:47 ] Yes, and it will lead you towards more of your fears or wounds that are asking you to clear at this time. So if you are able to meet that same with compassion, and turn it into the pride of having the courage of moving in the direction of your dreams and goals and joy, then you will be able to navigate that shame. The point is not that there is shame, the point is that you have fear of shame. It is not the shame that is the problem.
It's the fear of feeling that feeling, that feeling however exists within you whether you choose to feel it now or not, because it does not exist in all beings.

Q: yes

V: It is something you accumulated and you are being asked to feel to release.

Q05: Yes, there is a deep resonance with that. Being hurt.
Is that also, will there also help me to know more clear what my dreams and goals are, because there seems to be a question mark if I'm asked to formulate a goal that will inspire me and bring, or push me forward, it's always hard to think about something like that. [31:03 31:03]

V: That is ok, you do not necessarily need a goal as you have a direction, the direction is always the direction that brings the most peace to your being, the most comfort and joy to your being. That is your direction, At some point or other you may have a clearer vision of a destination but that is not necessarily the case and you do not need one, because you are always being revealed the next step upon your path. It is always right in front of you. You can diverge off of your path as much as you like. But there is always something that is slightly more exciting or pleasing than something else and if you always go in that direction then you already have your purpose and path laid out before you. There is a very mental practice to find out what ones goal is and work towards ones goal, but this is a dying mentality and also reality because the timelines are opening and unfolding at such a rapid pace now that you cannot really predict what the future will hold. Therefore if you do formulate a goal based upon anything you know in this moment in time it it possible that tomorrow everything shifts and it is probable that tomorrow everything shifts and that goal is no longer at all relevant. Therefore you would then have the process of having to let go and mourn the goal, so the new paradigm is to relax into and flow with the process of your life knowing that your goals, desires, dreams are not yours to begin with and they come through you. If you can listen to that voice that comes through you, and follow each step with faith, then you will always be heading in the right direction. And you do not need the motivation of an end goal to bring you to where you need to be, because you already are where you need to be. [33:08 33:08]

Q06: Yes, there seems to be as you said, timelines are accelerating, there seems to be great changes coming in our space and time. And is is possible for you to have a look upon the situation of me and my family and give some hint or even some question that might help me to decide which place to live on this planet, is having the most possibility or like surviving because I feel like there is control system and also a death, a death energy almost wanting to take hold of some societies.

V: [ 33:52 33:52] We will say that the most efficient way to ensure what you have called survival is not based upon location, but upon vibration and frequency and therefore any element of fear that you allow into your system is we would say a demerit point towards an outcome that you would not prefer.

So when you are feeling fear, we would suggest to each and every one of you to very quickly and not out of fear, but out of desire to do so and love, understands that the dismantling of this fear and returning to unity is the fastest way to get upon or to realign yourself with the natural course of all action, and you will find that as things are manifesting in a much faster fashion, things that will pop into your reality one day will pop out of it the next. And you will no longer have access to said information, or you will no longer have access to said thoughts. And at some point you will find yourself in a timeline where the ideas that you have just proposed simply do not exist, to you or to others.
If you are holding yourself in a timeline where there is what you call death energy, or there is the need to ensure survival, well you are holding yourself in a timeline where there is death energy and there is the need to ensure survival. It is all a hologram and an illusion, and it is in your control based upon what you are choosing, the law of attraction is not only a law on one level, in that you manifest what you are vibrating as, but on an even higher level in terms of your consciousness and perception and that you are the point of reference for all that you envision and see. Is that whatever you are envisioning and seeing and choosing is what you will envision, see and choose. You are literally changing the channel. If location is to be a theme in your experience, it is not going to come through asking and external source where it is that it would be best. What is is going to come through is your own excitement, passion and desire to be in that space, you will be called to it, it will be something that you do not see until you look at in retrospect and if you are moving or holidaying or vacationing in a spot in a certain point in time and that by coincidence allows you to avoid or benefit from a world event, then that would be the case, But it would not be the case that the decision can come out of any form of fear.

Q: Or asking an external source.

V: Yes. Because it is all internal in the end. But you will not get that form of answer from any external source, and if you are to, then we would ask you to take that information with a grain of salt and discern for yourself if that really does resonate or if it is you deferring your sense of well being to another.

Q: Thank you.

Q07: I have written a lot of questions but I feel most of them are answered in your own special way for me. So I would like to ask you if anything in your interaction or how your perceive the field in me or around me, is still an interesting point to address. Or if there is, yeah, if that is the case.

V: Yes we would like to point that though we discussed that self in this language, we do not believe that you hold a self hatred or an inability to be there for yourself in a way as the language suggested. And in fact you do have a tender ability to hold yourself, that you are on the cusp of an inner journey where shortly many of the frustrations that you have been experiencing will allow themselves to leave your system.

This is will come mostly from simply following you inner guidance, in terms of what feels good, much times there is much emphasis on loving oneself and that is a very abstract term, that most do not understand because they do not have an example of it, it is almost a catch phrase. But what it does mean is doing for oneself the things that one would want done, or shown externally, so that desire for validation or approval or acceptance that you have calls to you to accept and validate and approve of yourself. Or a desire for closeness, calls to you to cultivate more of a closeness with yourself, a desire for communication means that you want to communicate more with yourself, and you will and can begin these practices.

Don't beat yourself up for anything that you are doing, because it is possible also that you simply enjoy smoking.

Q: Yes.

V: And if that is the case, then it is not bad for you.
So yes, look at your vices, look at your habits, look at your addictions, but look at them with a compassion and an honesty.

Q: Yes, Thank you.
V: Thank you. [ 40:48 40:48]


Q08: One thing that is really interesting me. I am very drawn to the landscapes that I experience in my dreams. It is almost that they are distinct landscapes, 10 or 12 or maybe more. Where do these, and the feeling of these landscapes is really really special, really concrete. I sometimes ask myself do other people dream the same way or do those environment, landscapes, and the feelings that come with it have a special source or meaning for me ?

V: Well as you know consciousness is intrinsically linked and what seems to be separate selves are in fact all your other selves in parallel timelines, and lives, and the landscapes that you are seeing in your dreams are connected to a parallel you. A parallel life, that you have a deeper connection with, there is information there for you, from this being that is able to see these places, these places which do not exist perhaps in this specific timeline, but are parallel, parallel universes and information that is being transmitted to you, the fact that you are able to retain any of the remembrance of your dream state and the connection with the entity or being or source that is witnessing these real for them spaces means that it has some significance for you. You may not know the significance but the feeling state that you are experiencing that remembrance that you have when you are witnessing these spaces, is reminding you that you are not of this world, that you are not entirely of this world and that there is a freedom in knowing that. So if you do choose to investigate this further within yourself you may set the intention before sleeping to have more communication with that other version of yourself and you may set the intention to have questions to ask, and you may be able to use your dreamscape as a playground to learn more about what is being revealed to you, and how it has impact in your current life.
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Q: Yes.

V: It could be extremely playful and if you so choose you may artistically express these landscapes, we feel that as you do, you will find others in this experience who have that same connection. And open up about what it is that you are experiencing. You do not need to fear judgement from other-selves for everyone is you and if we had to leave you with one thought or feeling, or energy or transmission after this meeting with you. Then it would be to be fearless in the eyes of others, because when you look in the eye of any other being, all you see is yourself.

Q: Yes, I can grasp that feeling that you wanted to transmit.

V: We see the image of an eagle for you.

Q: An eagle

V: Yes.

Q09: Is there anything regarding my body and my health that I should be focusing it apart from things that I know and I don't want you to be a replacement for my instincts and my inner guidance, but is my body healthy ?

V: It is and those things that you know, and you could be, and we will not use the word should. But could be will be of great benefit to you, we would suggest only that you find a way to make them joyful, because if you have resistance to them they have absolutely no benefit. So whether it be exercise or drinking more or eating in a correct manner, or what you believe to be a correct manner none of these actions will have impact unless you find a way to make them exciting for yourself, which you can find in many ways, but your focus should not be upon completing tasks that do not feel good to you, your focus should be or could be upon making those tasks exciting for yourself. And that will shift everything for you in terms of taking care of, or loving or focusing upon your physical vessel. [46:08 46:08]

Q: Yes, they could also apply to tasks that really feel that need to be cleared up in order for me to be free, like doing the taxes or coming clear with finances and

V: yes

Q: All this stuff, do you suggest that also this could be done in a playful.

V: We suggest that it must be done in a playful manner.

Q: I like gamification.

V: Yes, and for you that is very much the case because we do believe that there is a very playful inner child in you that you have been repressing. That simply wants to come out and play and does know that life is a game and a joke and absolutely easeful if you let it be, and you may allow yourself to create these games and do not feel like there can be judgement, or that you are foolish or childish because you are not. You are simply you.
And this is what works for you. The world is not a serious place, we do not understand why adults are so serious compared to your child counterpart.

We do not when you all decided to put on suits and for what purpose. But in your particular case, playfulness is one of the keys, and so we encourage that you find your playful nature, that you put on the music that you like and you watch the TV shows that you like and that you dance or enjoy in any way that you so see fit because that will be a huge resource for you in your life.

Q: It fills me with joy to hear that.

V: Yes, we are giving you permission.

Q: Thank you.

V: Feel that. This is complete for this now. Do you feel that there is anything else that you would need to hear to be able to go on and live your most optimal life ?

Q: No I don't feel I need to hear more. This feels complete for me.
V: Yes and we will just add that you are doing a wonderful job, and you may have faith in the you that you are.

We leave you with the light of a thousand suns. -Anainai.