V: [08:00 08:00] Good now to you
We welcome you to this meeting, encounter, shared time, with us and it is our pleasure to be greeting you at this time.

So it is our intention to be of service to whatever needs you believe yourself to have
and a guide, permission slip towards that which you know within yourself. Simply pointing you to where it is you already feel you are pointed, finding within you the answers that you already sense and at this point we would invite you to upon what the best outcome of this encounter could be for you at this time.

V: Hello.

Is there a topic you would like to discuss ?

Q01: Yes there are several, I think the most pressing right now maybe the two threads that are dangling most intently in my mind, are my health a chronic health condition that arose about a year ago. Doctors may suspect to be the fallout of covid19, but I don't know and also the reality of my professional artistic and service life as the healer and teacher and writer feeling in wanting that yet experiencing some sort of block or limitation but financially to get that off the ground as it were. So those are the two domains today when I sit here with you I'm most wanting some support and counsel in navigating.

V: [12:22 12:22] We will address them in order. The first being health would advise that as your desire is to see the end of the symptoms that you are experiencing that you drop from your vocabulary the word chronic and the thinking patterns that you are in the process of adopting relating to this issue. There is nothing in the human body that is permanent, chronic or irreversible as the body itself is in a constant state of renewal. It is the thoughts and the habits or patterns that allow certain ailments or body processes to seem to be permanent or to seem to be chronic because you are habituated to awaking with them on a daily basis and you are told that there is no way to modify, the first way to modify is to change the thought pattern as this is relatively new, you are still at the beginning stages where you are able to decide which beliefs to take on. There is energy active within you
through your physical vessel that is of a teaching nature to you but it does not mean that you will need to live the rest of your life learning the same lesson.

You are also in a position of being upon a life's path that at this moment in time you are being served by the conditions or sensations of energy that are flowing through your body. you have done nothing wrong, this moment, this physical expression is necessary for you to be part of your story. It does not mean it will not pass because it is you who is writing your story and as you continue to write the most, we will use the word exciting but we would say also elaborate or imaginative story this plot point or storyline is currently necessary otherwise it would not be.

As you embark upon a healing journey you come across many characters you come across many new modalities or learnings or information that you would not have otherwise.
You have stated in your second question that your desire is 'to be what you are' which is a healer yourself and how can one have the 'art of healing' part of their mastery if they were not of the experience of having healed themselves first. We have discussed in the past that healing or 'the concept of healing' is actually impossible as there is never anything that is truly needing to be healed, for all is perfect, but on the relative level of your experience we do understand and have compassion for the fact that there is discomfort there is fear there is preference for a different reality, where it is easier to breathe or it is easier to move about.
But we assure you that by changing or shifting your perspective to the understanding that this is 'the beautiful expression of your highest calling' for this experience this catalyst and this growth that you are undertaking at this time is necessary for you to arrive at the soul position that you would like to be at. Then you will have at least the element of suffering removed from what as all is is simply experience.

In simpler terms perhaps your pain and discomfort are 'not for nothing' and in time you will see their value. This does not mean that 'one shall roll over and give in' to what is not their preference however it does mean that that 'desire to not roll over and give in'. That desire to heal is indeed taking you upon a journey that you without which would otherwise be poorer.[18:36 18:36]

Q02: [Two questions were asked in Q01, here is the response to the second one]
V: And with regards to your second inquiry

Why there does not seem to be flow in the direction of your career or finance or service or calling we would remind you that there is no such thing as a lack of flow Here too it is a question of perception, you are of service, your artistry, your healing and the wisdom and
expertise that you would like to offer to others can be offered, unconditionally, and perhaps it is this that is being asked of you. you are being asked to serve even though it does not seem like there is compensation for it even though it seems to be a struggle to go down that route of following your inner spark where will the money come from where will thee safety come from and this is a place where you have the opportunity to take a leap of faith for we know that, that faith itself is something that you deeply desire.

It is not that you are doing anything wrong. It is that perhaps you desire to have 'complete faith in the universe' more than you 'desire to have financial abundance' and what better way to teach you faith than to 'deny you what you think you need'.

We feel there are specific questions arising. If you have some inquiry or feedback to what we have said. [21:23 21:23]


Q03: Yes. Thank you. Thank you so much. As I'm listening, I'm the question of: Is it time to do this now and how how to do this now if so arise and i should name that I have been working for a company for the last few years. The last year as a freelancer, not an employee, and it's been a difficult experience for me and I'm wondering if to to add to this question of now and how. If now is the time to let go of working for them because it does feel like some sort of a psychic drain, energetic drain. It riles my nervous system. I become very unbalanced and in my brain, I feel like the time devoted to that along with all the other time that I just waste being who I am as with my own habitual patterns takes away the energy to unfold this career I've asked you about but as well to as well as limits me from working on my books which have been studying sort of collecting dust as I continue to write and write but never come back to create and compile and finalize. So I guess that's a lot of stuff but if I could boil it down it's this question of is it now do I stop working for this company do I take the leap of faith into my own creativity and perhaps a little flavor of how, how to do that in this very immediate moment the next couple weeks months whenever it's it's being called for.

V: [ 23:47 23:47] Yes there is only ever now and so the decision to not take action now is simply postponing it to a later now which does not actually ever occur or arise. We are responding in this way to you because the energy behind everything you have described is pointing to the fact that you do not thrive, you do not benefit, you do not have any reason to continue in the path that you're on. This is not information we are giving to external from yourself this is information you have given to us. Furthermore to that, you do not waste any time by being yourself, by being yourself is exactly the best spending of your time possible. There is no pattern or habitual error that you are creating by being you. It is simply perhaps a question of not having quite yet understood the magnificence or value in the you being yourself. This is also related to for example your books which you start and continue to compile and continue to create but do not come back and what you would say complete or finish them, this is not an unusual behavior for a creative. It is not something to beat yourself up about it, is something perhaps that once you are finished beating yourself up about and have decided that no longer serves you. It is something that perhaps you could get a collaborator with someone who is capable of understanding what it is you've put together and helping you out of their own passion and their own capabilities to do so to compile and sift through what is created at times these are editors. The now is as we said always now, the how is by looking at the reasons why you believe that it is not safe to take this action and we would ask you a direct question why is it unsafe for you to leave a draining situation that is harming you that you are aware of it harming you and head towards what you know in your heart of hearts is what is right for you. [26:18 26:18]

Q04: So beautiful thank you. There's a fear of not being, always having ,not always but for the most part having struggled with being independent and having money. There is a fear there is one of fear about losing that even though it's I don't make much money with them that is something and there's also something more subtle which I imagine you detect where
I don't know how to articulate it in words but there's some sort of feeling like I owe or that I've done something wrong or that I have a debt of some sort. Which sounds strange but it's but it's somehow in that in that web around this relationship with this company. But yeah I think on some level everything I've said is true. On another level I honestly don't know
I don't know why I stay with it and I think it's bigger than just this particular relationship with this company I think I've had this this is an older thing because I've I you know in some level it's related to and I know I'm not supposed to use this word anymore but a life where I've experienced more or less chronic pain since i was about 16 or 17 years old this feeling of being sort of handicapped or a victim and sort of staying with what you can get. While at the same time knowing I have this imaginative impassioned, sort of brilliance that I want to bring forth these two things sort of have always been not always but in this life at least have been my two frameworks.

V: [ 28:37 28:23] Yes it is convenient to remain a victim as it means you do not actually have to have responsibility for the life that you are creating because it is not your doing. There is some external aspect, some misfortune, that is creating for you and you are powerless to change that. We understand the draw of this mentality we see it often in fact it is the majority of the consciousness on your planet is living out that pattern of victimhood the fact that you are aware of your own tendencies or desire to play the role of victim points to a ending of that cycle. It points to a doorway out of that cage because if you were to not see this aspect of yourself you would not even know you were in a cage. You would simply be a victim to the cage and that would be it. So what you have now unfortunately for you if you choose to remain to be in that victim mentality is you have the awareness that you are choosing to be a victim and therefore you are no longer a victim of victimhood itself it is an uncomfortable position to be in because you cannot plead ignorance any longer sorry and you have to actually make the choice do you want to spend the rest of your life being who you actually are following that calling or sitting still upon your hands in a cage of your own creation. There are only two options and either is absolutely accepted by the universe either is your life story whatever you choose, you are loved, you are accepted but you do have a inkling within you and a desire to get up and check out what the rest of your life could be like if you were to let this belief go. We have seen in many of you that the reason why one would choose to remain in a cage of their own creation as opposed to accepting and loving themselves and moving into their actual calling is because they have a fear that should they take the action towards being who they are take that leap of faith they will somehow fail or fall. We will remind you however that upon taking the leap of faith, it is no longer you who is taking it because at the moment that you do you have so much faith in yourself that you know that you yourself are not your own responsibility. It is actually the opposite of the victimhood you give your life over to existence itself. You become the element in the grand game that you were born to be and suddenly you are completely irresponsible for your life. Suddenly you are in the hands of the creator. It is interesting that you believe yourselves to be out of control when you are victims and then that you would have to take control when you're your highest versions, however it is in surrendering to who you actually are and letting go of control that you become your highest version. We do not believe you to be a victim because we know you are not, whatever circumstances and catalyst and yes if you continue to use it chronic ailments or pain that you have experienced has been the building blocks of your spirit, have been the building blocks and the lessons, necessary for your
development to this point. Perhaps had you not had those experiences you would have never known that you were in that cage or using those experiences as an excuse to remain there and there's nothing to fear you are perfectly in this now exactly where you are meant to be contemplating these questions, making these decisions and in five or ten years time you will look back at this moment, this time in your life and you will see that there was a
fork in the road and whichever choice you make will be acceptable will be perfect for your soul's growth. But we feel that in this conversation there is a strong desire to make the decisions that you have been wanting to make for a long time and to take the direction that perhaps is more adventurous or seems more perilous and yet is the one that is more alive for you and is the one that is calling you. You do not owe anything to anyone except to yourself. [34:03 34:03]

Q: May I ask you an additional thing

V: Yes

Q05: As I'm listening to you share this font of wisdom, maybe this is back to the first question but at this time it's a bit more interrelated to what I've been sharing um in terms of how to work spiritually, physically meditatively with what I've been dealing with um I'm curious about your perspective on that and also in these past in this past year I can't exactly remember when this started happening I started on some level I would say receiving receiving practices like receiving things that or thinking about and starting to do and relate to my body in a yogic meditative way in ways that I wasn't taught precisely how to do it was sort of like a conglomeration of everything I've been taught but also a sort of spontaneous newness and I've had this curiosity about these particular name I've actually named some of them i don't even know if I've named them but names have come for them and I'm curious if these techniques are things that are in service to me and perhaps in service to others in the future as you can tell I have a little bit of insecurity about being a teacher in that way I you know have been trained to teach certain things but this isn't necessarily something I've been trained to teach. This has arisen and they feel alive and creative but I also don't want to be a charlatan so so I'm curious about these practices that have arisen in my mind and in my writing and in some level my experience and also just just repeating if there are particular ways in which I can viscerally, physically, somatically, spiritually, yogically relate to the experience of having had this this this illness this year whatever it may have been covid or not.

V: [37:17 37:17] Yes, with regards to the illness and the physical sensations that you are experiencing the fastest we would say fastest way to come to a space of comfort with them is acceptance, radical acceptance releasing at every moment that you feel any resistance towards what is happening in your body you remember simply that it is energy it is experience passing through you and you embrace it as the teacher it is, as the gift that even pain even discomfort is you are alive if you were not alive you would not feel discomfort you would not feel pain, it is a ability to be in your incarnate vessel that allows you to have discomfort pain or otherwise and that in itself is a beauty. This is a fast way to come to acceptance of discomfort.

With regards to the question about the practices that have come to you we would say that insecurity is absolutely unnecessary. You are always 100% secure. You are not your own creator in this. We mean you with your mind have not created your being, your experience, your intuition, your essence and therefore to put the brakes on and try to stall any aspect of this that has come to you through intuition with the mind and logic and saying that perhaps this is not real, perhaps this is not true is simply more resistance it is simply going against what is coming through you as a being.

We would not be able to communicate in this fashion, if any of the logical mind of the vessel was being used at any point of our transmissions, for example, and so what is coming through you if unique if you sense that it could be of service to someone even simply one being, even if that being is simply you, then it is a value. Anything that comes through you is of value and the fear of being a charlatan will never go, but you are not and you know yourself to not be, you are not afraid of being a charlatan you are afraid of being called or judged or seen as a charlatan but you in your heart know that you are not here to harm anyone and that's in this experience in your offering of your services of your teachings of your wisdom, of what has come through you, will impact others and it is up to you to decide whether the benefits that perhaps one or ten or a thousand people have from your service.
Is of more importance or not, than the one or ten or thousand people who judge you because you will have examples of both.

The decision is have you come here for yourself to keep yourself protected to make sure that people see you the way you want them to see you or have you come here to share what gifts come through you with those who are waiting to receive those gifts. So we would say to have faith in all of that which comes through you and to allow yourself to experiment there may be at times things that you propose that don't go exactly as you would hope them to go and then you readjust.

If you keep the heart of love and respect and honor and integrity for other-selves then we do not see how you could go wrong and we would say that it is safe to allow these insecurities to fade away and fall off of you and you will find that as you move more and more into yourself and this is back to that part of the question where you said what is your spiritual and somatic and physical and mental practices for feeling better. We do see that in your case you will not have the option of not fully becoming yourself. The further you step towards becoming fuller yourself the less necessary your physical vehicle will need to make it clear to you that you are on the wrong path. You are being supported by your body because the messages it is giving you very clearly put you in a position of discomfort as you find more and more comfort in being yourself fully on a mental and emotional and circumstantial level you will find that your physical issues will lift and soften because your body is your ally. [43:54 43:54]

Q06: Okay. I'm hearing hearing all of this which registers very deeply sort of brings me to the constellation in this node of home and place for this last year I've been living in the country of mexico even though I'm originally from the united states and I've always felt sort of nomadic and displaced and

I have no clear question but I do have this constant sense of gnawing of where where should I be because of the pandemic obviously I've taken where i am as where i am and that feels important and right for now but if there is any guidance and counsel on where in this relative earthen plane maybe rooting is a strong word but but let's say taking my seat for now. Where that should be and my intuition it feels like staying in mexico is the proper move but but Im even living between two different cities in mexico which is a pattern in my life of being sort of everywhere in nowhere which feels related to what we've been what I've been sharing. That's prozaic there's no clear question there but there's but I. Ii do feel like this being dislocated in time and place, being everywhere and nowhere, this idea of leap of faith somehow there's a quality that's feels related and on top of this insecurity of going forth with these practices and taking the leap there is this sort of, the sense of being dispersed and homeless and homeless in a certain way and wanting to know how to work with that on a really earthen, earthen level I hope that's somehow clear but it just came to me as I was listening to the last piece of what you shared.

V: [46:14 46:16] Yes, you are one at this moment in time who can have faith that your nomadic experience is correct for you. You are guided in terms of your physical location and can and have been listening to that guide with levels of facility with ease in time there may be movement that takes you to the exact right place situation and circumstance where you will decide that a longer sojourn is necessary. However there is no hope, we will say hope in this way but do not take it as despair, being its opposite, but there is no hope for what you are looking for as home in this lifetime, because there is no home in this lifetime on this planet your home is not a location, your home is that nowhere and everywhere and as you come to other times in your life, other moments in your life other experiences you will begin to feel at home in that nowhere and everywhere because you will understand that you are perhaps like a turtle or a snail in that you carry with you everything that you could possibly need or want or be able to create in what you have the concept of home as, and that as you move through this world the impact and the interactions you have with other selves are your home they are the reasons why you are existing and so to set up a house and buy some plates, tea towels and the shackles of the game of mortgage etc. perhaps are not for you because you would not be able to impact in the same way that you can with your mobility and this is not to say that you will not ever have a location that feels comfortable to you. To return to but the council we can give in terms of this topic is to work through the grieving process of letting go of this idea that there is a home and as that process is done you will be able to see the beauty in not homelessness but perhaps home fullness in that you will be full of homes full of the sensation of being home, at all times, we hope this is clear and a satisfactory response to the inquiry.

Q: It very much is thank you, thank you

V: If you have one more question we believe we have some time

Q: I'm just trying to track it. Wow. They're really it's a it's a ridiculous question but iIm just gonna ask it because as this idea of home fullness versus homefulness seems to be also the way in which I've inhabited any number of spiritual worlds

I am I've lived in india for many years and have a deep connection to the tradition of tibetan buddhism which is sort of my home I've been doing somatic work for the last decade or plus and more healing esoteric from my point of view modalities in the last five six years explicitly studying healing methods, based on another system and I said so when you asked that the question that came in to me is 'who am I' because there's also like a homelessness of or perhaps a homefulness of identity as a practitioner, as a teacher,

V: yes

Q: yeah so any something in that vein is alive in me a curiosity

V: [51:52 51:52] yes

You are who you are in each and every moment. The idea that one needs an identity is limiting, many of you have your identities but they are constructed your flexibility is your identity. If there is something that is constant within you it is your ability to learn, to adapt, to connect. All of the concepts, to come to a unique perspective with what you have learnt and to re-elaborate that for perhaps someone who is not of the mind to go study all of these modalities, you are a distillation and in the same way the concept of home is not serving you the concept of identity does not and so if you were to go forth from this conversation with homework. ha ha. Then it would be to allow yourself to feel the feelings of letting go of the belief that you need a home and the belief that you need an identity because the moment that you do so you will have a level of liberation that you have not felt so far while you watch others their experience of home identity, consistency and you wonder why it is that you don't have that. You are overlooking the magnificence of the flexibility that you do have and the only way to move through that is to mourn these concepts that you have been ingrained with by your society your entire life because who are you if not someone who are you if you not located but as you know from your studies the true self has no location and has no identity, it is the all-seeing all-knowing essence of All-That-Is and the fact that you as a human have a perhaps closer experience or access to that energy is beautiful but as you are a human you must allow yourself the human emotions of letting go of these concepts that have been so tantalizingly proposed to you. For the decades you have been here you do not need to be anyone because you already are, no word or name or label will make you any more solid because you are already solid and you do not need to present yourself to anyone else because the moment you walk into their space you are already introduced. So allow yourself to be liquid because it is in your liquid form that you are able to serve those who need what you are here to serve.[55:38 55:38]

Q: hmm so

V: We thank you for your time attention and willingness and send you forth with love and the light of a thousand suns Anainai

Q: Thank you.