V: Good morning to you,

We have not yet had the pleasure of communicating in your morning. The human experience involves time and so many different impressions of times of day for you and we have noted that you are different in your different times of day.

We are enjoying the opportunity to meet with you on a more individuated level and are so pleased to be able to interact with you today in this way.

We are available to discuss with you anything that is in your heart.

Q01: I am having a lot of thoughts about something and I'm wondering if this is serving me or distracting me. I feel bad for being in this “lala land” about it. Just this morning when I woke up, I said to myself :
“Stop why are you thinking so much”.

I'm wondering what I need to do with what's going on inside me?

V: Your sensation of being uncomfortable with this pattern is evidence to it no longer serving you. However, it is what is appearing for you. And so if, it is only appearing for you, in order for you to learn; that it is no longer serving you, this is service.

There is an assumption that one cannot control their thoughts. Which if left uncontrolled is true. However, when you find you have thoughts that are running in a direction, that you know is no longer a direction you wish for them to run in - you may interject with your language. You may use your mind to stop and calm thoughts. You may talk with yourself. You may verbalize within your mind the words:

“These thoughts are not serving me. It is okay for them to be there. I have a preference to think this other thoughts.”

The effect of this will be less so if you are judging yourself for having the thoughts in the first place.

Judgment is never serving, except in the understanding that judgment no longer serves. If you are distracted by your thoughts it is because you are choosing to be distracted by them because there is something that you do not want to face at this moment. This is a service to you if the thing that you do not want to face is not what is meant for you in that moment.

So any form of judgment is unnecessary for any form of energy or situation or circumstance that passes through your experience. If you would like to resolve the thoughts you may discuss them with us here or you may choose to adopt a non-judgmental new practice of interrupting the thoughts. Perhaps even laughing at the innocence of them and moving on to the next thing that you choose to think of instead.

If however, you have a perception that the thing you should be thinking about is more important or significant or worthy than the thing you are thinking about, it is again a question of releasing judgment of self and what one believes is the correct path for self.

What is it you believe you are being distracted from?

Q: I don’t know if I believe I'm being distracted from anything. I think what I worry about is creating too much of an emotion from these thoughts and that potentially distracting me or bringing me into the wrong situation or causing me to act out of alignment further down the line. Like maybe the thoughts are clouding my judgment or affecting my perception of reality.

V: If your thoughts can create an emotion, the emotion is simply there to tell you that those thoughts are no longer relevant for you. As you think thoughts that create negative emotion within you, you will be able to release those thoughts. As soon as the negative emotion gets to such a level that you have a complete understanding, that those thoughts do not serve you; and so, thinking in that direction and therefore feeling the negative emotion, to an extent to which you decide that it's no longer serving you, is serving you in that manner.

There is no need to fear a road that will take you towards negative emotions or what you call a negative emotions, for there are no negative emotions.

In reality all emotions are pointing you towards what works for you and what does not work for you. Therefore to knowing yourself more completely. Down the road you will not act outside of integrity for you will have learned more of who you are and what is integrity for you. Even if you have had negative emotions which have led you to actions, that have then led to consequences or perceived consequences, that are not in alignment with who you would like to be. They will lead you to learn who you actually are, for you are not who you would like to be. You are who you are. This game is not becoming who you would like to be. It is becoming more of who you are. These things may not align. Your idea of who you are and who you actually are, are often not in correspondence. In them not being in correspondence one has the potential of causing self judgment, doubt, fear, consequences that are out of alignment with self for they are not being true to self. It is only possible to be true to self when one knows who oneself is. You cannot make a mistake and you cannot hurt another being for you do not have so much responsibility.

Your responsibility lies with understanding more completely who you are and if this involves having these thought patterns, which then lead you to emotions, which then lead you to release these thought patterns or to take action that is perhaps not completely in alignment with who you would like to be but is more in alignment with who you are; then you will always be in a state of growth. Which you are anyway.

What is it you are afraid of doing?

Q: Good question. I think I'm afraid of moving further from who I am and I want to move more into that because I feel like “Okay, I am ready to be who I'm becoming now.”

V: Well you always are who you are. You cannot move away from who you are. Even if you are in confusion of who you are, that is who you are. In each moment you are who you are. What you are talking about is perhaps moving away from what you think you want to be. And even if that happens you will come back to who you are.

Also, when you have become this who you think you are now, what will change for you?

You said, you want to become who you are becoming right now.

Q: I don't think anything will really actually change for me, it will just be a continuation of things as they are.

V: Yes and you will then be becoming some other version of who you are. Or you will be becoming more of who you are. Or will be becoming or being what you are. And so what we see that the discomfort in this conundrum may be is that you are not seeing who you are. You are feeling the discomfort of feeling that you need to be becoming or who you are next week or tomorrow or in ten minutes.

Of course this is an uncomfortable situation for your inner being is saying - what we are saying as well - is that you already are in your complete perfection. Yes there will be evolution. But it will not be more perfect. It will just be another version of perfect. To assume that a future version is more perfect than this perfect, is incongruent with what is the reality of your experience and this is the discomfort that you feel at times.

Q: Is there anything that would be helpful for me to move more into alignment? And to stop thinking I have to move towards who I think that I meant to be? Does that make sense?

V: Yes. We feel that you do not know, or you are not seeing your very
high levels of clarity. You are doubting your own clarity. You have, from our perspective, very astute clarity on who you actually are.

You are now in a phase of shedding the remaining conditioned judgments of who you are and as you do so there is discomfort. You will settle into the knowing that who you are is who you are and ironically that will then give you the sensation of having arrived at the who you are that you always wanted to be.

But you are not arriving, what you're doing is letting the ground of the escalator arrive to you. It is coming up to you, you are standing still. So you may stand still in your clarity. Your clarity of who you are is accurate. You are doubting it only because of the conditioning and only because you are unique and you are in ways, that you can perceive, what you call different from many others around you. This difference makes you believe that there must be something clouding your perception. There must be some reason why that accuracy of their uniformity has some contrast with the uniqueness of your individuation. This is an experiment or theme that you have chosen in a life that many who are different from the pack, or seemingly different from the pack, have chosen to experience and stepping into your knowing and clarity will allow you to relax into this acceptance of who you are.

What's more and we sense this now, you do not need to fear that accepting your unique skills, gifts, nature, abilities, essence, will turn into arrogance within you. Just because you are unique does not mean that you believe yourself to be special or better than an other self.

It is clear that you are concerned about the implications of being different from the pack, in terms of not wanting others to think that you are thinking yourself to be better than them. You do not need to worry about this for you do not think yourself to be better. You do not have that in your nature you have cleared enough to be able to step into your own being with innocence and purity.

Q02: Is there anything I need to be focused on clearing right now?

V: What would you like to be clearing right now? What is the element or theme or repetition or habit that is no longer serving you that you would like to let go of and release and thank for its service?

Q: I think feeling like I have lack of clarity and feeling like I don't know how to express my uniqueness in the world.

V: Yes. You may then visit in your memories or conscious past lifetime the moment that clarity was removed from you. There will be a time as a child where there was clarity. Perfect clarity and knowing. You may revisit that moment where doubt arrived, where someone told you that your perception of self was not accurate and you may revisit that time. You can do this in meditation or visualization or in any of the many forms you already know inside of yourself to do this.

You may go to that child and forgive them for having believed what was being told to them and forgive the one that to them. For once a seed is planted, of this sort in the psyche it grows roots quickly. Situations or circumstances that arrive after the initial seed take the form of nutrients for the root system of a plant that is growing in the mind of a child. In your mind was planted the seed of unclarity and confusion, and you were instructed to check in with others on who you are. You were instructed to make sure that your perception of situations, relationships, circumstance and your own feelings, you were instructed to check in with someone else, with others to make sure that that was in alignment with what they were seeing.

This happens often to extremely clear beings because the clarity with which they are living their lives as children is terrifying to those around them. It is very hard for parents to see that a child knows who they are. For it is an example of them having to do the work to remember who they are themselves. If a parent has a child of this nature and does not see that they need to do their own work what they will try to do is suppress the nature of the child because of the fear that they have of the confidence and the knowing of the child's that they are in contact with. This is what has happened to you at some point. This is why we pointed out that you do have extremely high levels of clarity. You just believe that you do not.

To remove the tree or plant or weed that has been planted in you, you may go back to the time where someone offers you the seed of this doubt and say “no thank you not this time” and that will change the past within your psyche and it will change your present experience. You may repeat this as often as necessary.

Q: If I feel like I can't remember when that happened will I be able to just
still call upon it and access it when I decide to do so?

V: Yes absolutely. You may even invent within your mind an inaccurate recollection of this experience, for it is only metaphor even if it is through recollection. Recollection is nothing more than synapses in the brain matter recalling, often extremely inaccurately, the impressions of an experience that did not exist in the first place. So you may create a fictitious character who literally came to you and planted a seed in your belly and imagine this tree growing in you as if it was something that truly happened to you and it would be equally effective. For some reason we see a badger.

Q: That was the name of my horse.

V: There your horse planted the seed.

It is possible it was related to your horse. Perhaps in riding you had a fear that you had made a mistake or that you were somehow in danger and yet you knew you were not. Someone told you something you were doing was dangerous or beyond your level and you knew it was not. But you believed them.

Q: I just got a memory of one horse that I had who was really talented but very sensitive and injured me quite badly at one point. Then I was told that we weren't able to have him anymore and ever since then I've had my shoulder be not quite 100% right. Do you think that they are connected?

V: Yes they are. You were not only injured in the shoulder. You were injured by the horse being taken from you. You were attached to this animal. You had a spiritual connection with them. You have blamed yourself for the incident, when there was nothing to be blamed. There was no blame needing assignment neither on you or the horse. However you were in a situation with people who only knew how to assign blame to situations. They did not see the learning opportunity within them. They understood, only that something needed to be done. You have adopted this belief as well, that when something happens there is someone that is at fault or at merit and your shoulder is a beautiful reminder of this lesson that you are still choosing to learn.

There is no blame.

Q: I had a connection to that horse as I had a lot of dreams about what we could do and I think having to let go of him was having to let go of those dreams as well.

V: Yes and do you see the parallel between you and your belief that you cannot step into your highest version?

Q: Yes.

V: At that time your vision of the highest version was doing amazing things with this horse. You understood the freedom with which you interacted with this being and you had this anticipation of what that would mean.

There was an incident, as there are when learning, which did not come to the best results according to the situation or community with which you were living. They did not see this as a learning curve they saw it as something that was negative and dangerous and beyond the scope of what was possible. You knew however that it was not beyond the scope of what was possible, it was just something that had happened because it needed to happen.

It needed to happen that this horse injured you because you needed to learn that being injured or having something happen was of no importance and that your goals and dreams were still paramount.

This is still the case for you now your goals and dreams are still paramount, however you are metaphorically riding the wrong horse. The safe one. And your heart knows that there is another horse for you. Because while the safer horse is suitable for the majority of people around you and absolutely correct for them. There is nothing wrong with that. You have a passion for the horse with whom you had the connection. Of course we are speaking in metaphors, we are now talking about the passion for the life that you are choosing to live.

It's still within you.

Q03: Could you talk more about this passion?

V: Yes, if you can recall the moment before the incident with the horse we believe that you will find that you had no fear even as you were falling, or interacting, we cannot individuate the exact circumstance for you are not tapping into it yourself.

That fearlessness came from knowing who you were and who you are and that even in being injured you would be fine. You are, by nature, one who is not afraid of making mistakes and yet you have been trained to be one, who is afraid of making mistakes. And we would say you are safe to return to your true nature of fearlessness in the face of mistakes.

If you are not afraid of making the wrong decision and you are not afraid of making mistakes, what changes for you, in terms of what you would risk taking?

What would you risk?

What actions or passions would you risk if there was no ability to be blamed or make mistakes?

Q: I'm not sure if I'm connecting to the right thing or not but I feel that it's the events or the art and I'm not 100% sure. I don't feel strong clarity around it.

V: Well that's okay because you are still letting go of the fear of making a mistake. In fact, in your sentence just now you said you're not 100% sure. You're not 100% clear and this points to the fear of saying what is coming to you without it being 100%, which would imply that what you said could be erroneous - could be a mistake.
Our suggestion to you now would be to experiment with saying and experiencing the things that you are not 100% sure about.

For example if they thought that came into your head was “if it was impossible to make mistakes I would... start painting abstract paintings” then we would say even if that was not 100% what came into your mind, it was vague or not fully formulated, we would say to say it and then say something different if something different comes to your mind.

It is okay to change your mind, it is okay to make mistakes and you know it is.

This is part of your clarity. Your clarity is the knowing that it is okay to not be 100% sure because, being ok with not being 100% sure is the clarity. Only people who have thought through things to disgusting ends, and we say disgusting as they are nauseated by their own overthinking, are 100% sure of their conclusions because they have come to the safest conclusion.

How could anything that was expanding the universe be 100% when there's infinite possibility in every direction?

Expansion is one mistake after another. And nothing is ever wrong. So mistakes don't truly exist.

When are you 100% sure?

Q: Never.

V: And so why do you believe that this is something that is required?

Q: Yeah that’s very true. I think I have a belief that it's what's required for it to be the best that it can be.

V: Why does it need to be the best that it could be? And according to whose judgment?

Q: Yeah I think that's my own judgment of my own capabilities when it comes to creating things that I don't need to have.


V: Creation does not make mistakes. There are no mistakes in creation and therefore you as part of creation cannot be a mistake and cannot make mistakes either. Every of your desires, every of your thoughts, every of your actions, is exactly what is coming through creation at the moment that it is coming through creation via your Source.

The best that it could be, could never be more than the best that it could be for it always is what is and there is no way to judge what is created in creation if one is not directly opposing creation itself. For any form of judgment of anything within creation is judgments against the Creator. There is will, yes, however, even will is God's will if that is a word that you choose to use for Source, Creator, all that is.

There is no way to separate oneself from creation, there is no way to separate oneself from all that is. For as much as humans try there is no separation. Even the most horrendous acts that you see on your planet created by the beings that you judge the most, the ones that you cannot stomach, cannot relate to or imagine to be of the same spirit as you, are you, and are part of all that is and our part of creation and the will of the creator.

Freedom comes from knowing that you are the Creator and creation itself. You are creation and so your will is the will. Your mistakes are perfection. You cannot have a single misstep.

Can you imagine the freedom you will feel when you are free of judgment?

Q04: The first tendency in me is to wonder about where this judgment is inside me. I feel like I have a pattern that is always moving towards self-improvement like moving towards what's the block as opposed to what's the flow? But yes, I can imagine what it would be like to feel total freedom, I only think that I couldn't, and that was a block.

V: We are feeling into some way to transmit a tool or methodology to you for this block, or seeming block.

However, we see you as completely free already and feel that giving you a tool in this direction would enforce or reinforce the belief that there is something that needs to be done. We would love to allow you the permission to leave this entire topic temporarily and do in every moment what it is you feel like doing without a perception of the future or potential consequence of your actions or inactions.

If you were, for just today, to live your life as if there is no tomorrow and all of your actions were to come from your highest, we will not say highest, we will say joyful desire, your playful desire, then we wonder how much of your day would change? If there were no consequences from any of your actions. How much would your day change?

If today someone arrived and said:

“I'm sorry this is the version you have to remain with for the rest of your existence. There will be no more improvements, there will be no more fixing. This is it and you cannot strive to make changes, you could not strive to improve yourself or remove a perceived block.”

What would change?

Q: I think I would be happier. I would also see the beauty and the perfection in others as opposed to seeing the the work that I could do with them to help them. I think of my relationships would be more joyful and more free as a result of that.

V: Are you excited to try that for one day?
Q05: I don't want to just try it for one day! Yes, that feels really good and I feel like it's what I've been feeling for myself and doing a bit more on a longer rein in the last few days but I think I could go all in.

The only thing that I've been thinking that's been stopping me has been feeling like the pressure to care about and to take care of my financial needs but I sense that this is being a block for me as well and that's inhibitive of me just felt flowing freely through.

V: We sense much playfulness in your essence in your being. There is high energy of playfulness and you mentioned the financial aspect. We understand this is a theme for much of humanity, we'll remind you that your needs will be met and that any difficulty that you face in this subject will only be for you to learn more of how unnecessary it is to perceive of anything as difficulty.

We would also like to reassure you that, as you allow yourself to feel better and move more in the direction of your own flow that abundance flows naturally in that response to you being who you are and the beings that will benefit from your wisdom and love and tools and ability to serve will more easily find you if you are lighting up in your own essence without the needing to try to do so.

And so if it is a question of you believing you would like to help people and they would show their appreciation and financial means then it is more likely that the best work you could do in that direction is still the work of finding your freedom, clarity and playful joyfulness as that in your terms would be the best marketing strategy you could come up with.

For as much as on your physical realm you see there are methodologies of people attracting clients, etc, there is in the game that you are playing a far far more potent form of advertising on an energetic level. Those who are meant to find you will find you far easier if you are able to show them who you truly are and you will be able to show them who you truly are when you accept who you truly are which is being of deep clarity and knowing of self.

Q: Yeah, that's so true I know that.

V: Of course you do.

Q: I always have

V: We know.

On top of all of this we assure you, that as you are more of yourself and feeling more aligned with yourself - which you are already we can feel it, you will have inspirations naturally in which direction to take all of your endeavors, including your business and financial endeavors. Things will arrive to you, not just through the power of Law of Attraction as you call it or manifestation but through inspiration and through the clarity of knowing that you cannot make a mistake.

When the inspiration arrives you will take action on what is meant to have action taken upon it as soon as it arrives and therefore will be flowing in the direction of your highest calling and so it is not as if you will be sitting around doing nothing and taking no action and being irresponsible, the most responsible things will begin to happen because you will have the correct inspiration for action.

And not correct as in correct and there can be a mistake but correct for you. And with the faith that your own intention and your own path and your own strategies are what is correct for you, you will be able to take action which will lead more into a state of comfort for the lessons of discomfort will no longer be necessary for you.

Q: I think I've been judging my lack of apparent action and acting on inspiration as if there's something wrong with me or to improve on but it's not about that. It's just about being in the freedom and the clarity and the confidence that letting the right thing arrive.

V: Yes, you are also not seeing how much action you have been taking, it
just has not been physical action.

Q: Yes, that’s true.

V: There's much work that has been occurring for you. And you are on the right path.

Q: Yes, I know.

V: Are there any other further or specific topics questions that you would like to discuss?

Q06: Is there anything that I need to do to get off the safe horse?

V: Well the first thing that would serve you is to realize how dangerous the safe horse has always been for you. For that is not where you have meant to be and it has not been bringing you the freedom and quality of existence that you have chosen to experience. The other thing would be to realize that the other horse is so much more fun.

So one view needs to be understanding how things you have been perceiving or doing or thinking or beings that you have been spending your time with are no longer serving you, or your interaction with them in certain ways, is no longer serving you and to see with clarity, that there is and you are already aware of what is the model of the new existence that you want to experience and how much that is serving you. Safety is not serving you for there is no safety.

Q: Thank you.

V: Thank you. There is so much love for you. And we know that you are able to hear with that clarity your own inner Higher Being and what is being called to you. That is why you see the magnificence of that calling and you have some remaining insecurity, doubt and fear but we assure you there is no need to have that remaining doubt, insecurity and fear for, you, the highest version of you which is not something to achieve but something to walk beside; is so present with you and with such open arms to you, that you can allow yourself to melt into that embrace.

You are one.

We are one.

You are safe and loved. And recognized in your perfection.

We leave you with the light of a thousand suns and the love of the one all that is.
Anainai